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2005-05-06T05:44:59Z
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♥ I am BROKE
2005-05-06T05:44:59Z
2005-05-06T05:44:59Z
<small><center><font color="Red"><font face="Symbol" size="1">© </font><font size="1" face="Tahoma"><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/lil_leopard_grl/86406.html" target="new">show some heart</a> <font face="Symbol" size="1">©</font></font><br><br><table width="50%" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0"><tr><td width="20.00%" bgcolor="#800000"> </td><td width="20.00%" bgcolor="#C00000"> </td><td width="20.00%" bgcolor="#FF0000"> </td><td width="20.00%" bgcolor="#C00000"> </td><td width="20.00%" bgcolor="#800000"> </td></tr><tr><td colspan="5" align="center"><font size="1" face="Tahoma"><b>Self-Injury: You are NOT the only one.</b></font></td></tr></table><br><font size="1" face="Tahoma">Monday, March 1, 2004 is <a href="http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injury.html" target="new">SI Awareness Day</a>.</font></center></small><br /><br />what a rough night...</font>
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...long time
2005-05-01T04:37:03Z
2005-05-01T04:37:03Z
A beautiful misatke...
<p><strong>Wow</strong>, it's been SO so long since I've been able to actual post here, sorry girls. <br>SO so much has happened. Mostly bad i guess. <br>Well its been 2 years living with mia (ana tendancies / COE / S.I) & never told<strong> ANY</strong> of my best frineds... but the other night my friend came & stayed for a while & I broke down, told her everythign. I was a mess! Turns out I have a few friends who hav (had) E.D's SO now a few people know & we kinda talk openly someitmes about it...(esp. when im DRUNK) & also how we cut ourselves..... Wierd. Scary.<em> STRANGE</em>! I don't know how to feel, just so much has happened. AND lately I can't sleep or breathe and been having so many anxiety attacks at work that i even rang my mum, crying, uable to breathe! She told me that she's taking me to see someone about my 'anxiety/social anxiety'! But IM SOOO SCARED that the doctor/shrink will get everything outta me & all my problems will unravel & my mum will find out about EVERYthing! i<strong> DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO REALLY,</strong> never seen anyone before. ?? ARGH. I don't want my mum to know I'm sick & messed up, it will hurt her...<strong> (>_<)</strong> </p>
<p>....I've been liquid fasting for about 3/4 days, going pretty ok, a few slip here & there. But my parents have gone away & my friend is coming to stay again (the one I told) & she makes me eat...she tried to get me to 'recover' kinda. But how do i get around it? Im finally starting to feel empty again....and my wrists are already so screwed upI used to cut as punishment for eating, now its become an addiction & its all I can think about when I'm emo or stressed.? How do I stop, I don't have bracelets big enough to hide the wounds!</p>
<p>Well girls, thats my vent, sorry... Hope everythign is ok. Just think thin, stay strong & remember that wonderful beautiful happy & content feeling that only comes with being <strong>EMPTY and LIGHT!</strong></p>
<p><font size="4">much love, &hearts;always</font> <strong>CaRla~* xxx</strong></p>